My birthday is June 21st, and according to an Astrology book that I own, I am a Cancer with Gemini tendencies. I usually do identify with Gemini traits but as I have gathered online everyone born between June 21st and June 27th are on the Gemini-Cancer Cusp. And I just read the most insightful article on this. If you want to read it the link is below.
Simply JITH
Since there was so much in the article that I feel fits me, I figured I would take bits and pieces and just comment. For the record, when I read standard horoscopes I tend to read Gemini even if Cancer says it includes June 21st.
"...by virtue of the inherent defensive instinct associated with this cusp combination, even the most mild of these natives will be inclined to gently lay down emotional guidelines that should not be overstepped."
This was the first line I read that made me go "Yes! So true!" There are certain things that people can say or do that will cause me to just cut them off. It's a little hard to explain but here's an example: A few years ago, I was talking to this guy and I was starting to like him. Well one night we were hanging out and my cousin was with us but he was waiting for a cab to pick him up. After my cousin left, the guy made a comment about how badly he wanted my cousin to leave and proceeded to get too comfortable - taking his shoes off, laying down on my bed. I didn't appreciate his tone or what he implied by us being alone so I after just a little while I asked him to leave and we never hung out again.
"Falling within the influence of both Gemini and Cancer, these cuspians are, in fact, a rather interesting blend of logic and feeling."
This is why I think I am able to empathize and sympathize with people so well. I am pretty good at seeing both sides of a story and understanding people. I've learned to see many possibilities and play the Devil's advocate.
"If the Gemini/Cancer native does allow another to share his or her living space, then such implies immense trust and a great deal of respect for the other person. An invitation to visit this highly personal world is more often the giving of a true gift or the reflection of a desire to share, rather than a sign of ostentation or need for sociability."
This quote is so on-point. I am very hesitant to invite people over to my apartment. It's my space, it's my privacy and I don't feel like I can let just anyone in. Especially living in a studio, I feel like my apartment is me and it's not easy to let people in.
"..remaining in touch with reality is important for Gemini/Cancer subjects and they need to find friends and partners who are more extroverted by nature in order to provide an essential link to the world."
I would say this is the reason I am usually attracted to guys who are outgoing. Usually I have to force myself to be outgoing and extroverted. Many people think I am this way normally but I'm a big homebody, I just don't like to be in my shell for so long. I get stir-crazy often now since I spend a lot of time in my apt.
"Due to the influence of Mercury (Gemini's planetary ruler), there is a strong desire in this cusp combination to take up new projects and switch occupations"
Absolutely true for me. I am always looking for something new to do or try. As long as it's something creative, or I can learn from it, I want to do it. Plus, I get bored easily sometimes, so while routine is comforting it can get old quick.
"The inherent tendency to repress feelings should also be avoided."
This is the biggest issue I deal with. I'm not very good with verbally expressing myself, that's one reason I thought a blog would be a good idea for me. Writing down whatever I feel is easy to me but I usually end up keeping whatever that is to myself. When I used to write poems, they were always real - maybe a little exaggerated, but still real - but most people haven't read most of those. Figuring out why I tend to repress my feelings and how to stop doing so is something I am currently working on.
Friday, October 28
Thursday, October 20
Moving Sideways
I really am at a point in my life where I don't know where I'm going, or where I want to go. It's like I'm riding on one of those floor escalator things and it's just taking me where it wants. I'm gliding through life and watching things pass me by.
I like to say I'm trying. Trying to find a new job, trying to meet new people. But am I trying hard enough? Wouldn't I see some kind of change by now if I were? Or is this just my life right now? Maybe I just need to be more patient. But it's hard when there aren't even enough hours in the day to breathe. I've been meaning to take Yoga more seriously and learn to meditate.. but it's so much easier to look for things to do outside of my apartment or just waste my time in front of the TV. I mean, who wants to think anyway?
I feel stagnant. Stuck. Disconnected. And it's a weird feeling. It's actually hard to explain so I don't even think I'll attempt to. It's just an up and down kind of thing going on. I want to break away. I want to win the lotto and disappear for a month. But, at the same time I just want to have a party with all of my friends, hug and kiss them and talk about bullsh*t. I have been doing some of that lately - the talking part, I could probably use some more hugs and kisses lol - and that's probably why I haven't gone insane yet.
Things are hard on a lot of us right now. For some it's work related (like me), for others it's about love or family, but it just seems everyone is struggling somewhere. This definitely bothers me. I don't like to see anyone I care about struggling, or feeling down about anything and I just wish I could help everyone. And to end this off with a cliche, I just want to add that I am going to try my best to stay positive. I think we could all benefit from sending out good energy.
I like to say I'm trying. Trying to find a new job, trying to meet new people. But am I trying hard enough? Wouldn't I see some kind of change by now if I were? Or is this just my life right now? Maybe I just need to be more patient. But it's hard when there aren't even enough hours in the day to breathe. I've been meaning to take Yoga more seriously and learn to meditate.. but it's so much easier to look for things to do outside of my apartment or just waste my time in front of the TV. I mean, who wants to think anyway?
I feel stagnant. Stuck. Disconnected. And it's a weird feeling. It's actually hard to explain so I don't even think I'll attempt to. It's just an up and down kind of thing going on. I want to break away. I want to win the lotto and disappear for a month. But, at the same time I just want to have a party with all of my friends, hug and kiss them and talk about bullsh*t. I have been doing some of that lately - the talking part, I could probably use some more hugs and kisses lol - and that's probably why I haven't gone insane yet.
Things are hard on a lot of us right now. For some it's work related (like me), for others it's about love or family, but it just seems everyone is struggling somewhere. This definitely bothers me. I don't like to see anyone I care about struggling, or feeling down about anything and I just wish I could help everyone. And to end this off with a cliche, I just want to add that I am going to try my best to stay positive. I think we could all benefit from sending out good energy.
Tuesday, October 11
Friends
I feel so alone sometimes. Like when I'm having a bad day I don't know who to vent to. Or when I'm excited about something I don't know who to share the news with. Even when I am just bored and want to have a random conversation I don't really know who to turn to.
It feels weird to have friends but not feel like I have a solid foundation. I mean, my friends will have my back if I am really going through something but first I'd have to catch them up on everything that has been going on lately. And I know I've spoken about this before but I still wish I had that tight-knit group that hangs out often and talks everyday. Or at least one person like that. I'm comfortable being alone but I don't like to feel lonely.
A solution I've heard to this is that I should make new friends. But I don't really want to make new friends. I don't want to force myself to go out places with the intention of meeting new people. I'm not against meeting someone new, I just don't want to force it or try too hard. I believe in things falling into place. In clicking with people. So, I guess whatever happens happens. I'll just make more use of this blog when I need to air things out.
It feels weird to have friends but not feel like I have a solid foundation. I mean, my friends will have my back if I am really going through something but first I'd have to catch them up on everything that has been going on lately. And I know I've spoken about this before but I still wish I had that tight-knit group that hangs out often and talks everyday. Or at least one person like that. I'm comfortable being alone but I don't like to feel lonely.
A solution I've heard to this is that I should make new friends. But I don't really want to make new friends. I don't want to force myself to go out places with the intention of meeting new people. I'm not against meeting someone new, I just don't want to force it or try too hard. I believe in things falling into place. In clicking with people. So, I guess whatever happens happens. I'll just make more use of this blog when I need to air things out.
Thursday, October 6
Another Outfit Post
Even though I just had a post about my outfit, I guess I just can't help but do it again. I just really liked my outfit yesterday. And as I looked at my reflection in the subway car door, I realized just how inexpensive my entire outfit was. I've always known that you don't need to spend a lot of money to look good and I pride myself on being cheap. So, I just felt like making this post to have a little fun and really evaluate every piece of my outfit.
My jacket is from Strawberry and I swear it's the best $25 I have spent in a while. The purse was a find in Beacon's Closet and cost $10. The pashmina scarf was $5 from a street vendor, and the ring is from a little store in Atlantic City 2 for $10.
My tank dress is from H&M (I also have it in pink and black) and it was about $12. The shirt is also from H&M and I believe it was just $14. And my necklace from Forever 21 was $5.
These tights which have a diamond-like design and are really warm were bought in Walmart for $5, and my shoes from Forever 21 were $20.
And I just wanted to show you my watch that I got from New York & Company about two years ago. The proceeds were going to Breast Cancer Awareness. I can't remember how much it cost but when the money is going to a good cause it doesn't really matter.
My jacket is from Strawberry and I swear it's the best $25 I have spent in a while. The purse was a find in Beacon's Closet and cost $10. The pashmina scarf was $5 from a street vendor, and the ring is from a little store in Atlantic City 2 for $10.
My tank dress is from H&M (I also have it in pink and black) and it was about $12. The shirt is also from H&M and I believe it was just $14. And my necklace from Forever 21 was $5.
These tights which have a diamond-like design and are really warm were bought in Walmart for $5, and my shoes from Forever 21 were $20.
And I just wanted to show you my watch that I got from New York & Company about two years ago. The proceeds were going to Breast Cancer Awareness. I can't remember how much it cost but when the money is going to a good cause it doesn't really matter.
Tuesday, October 4
#14 - What I Wore Friday
Okay so #14 is actually "What I Wore Today" but I totally meant to post this on Friday night. I was just too tired when I finally got home and Saturday I was in Atlantic City all day..but anyway.
What I wore at work was slightly different. Just black pants and black flats. This is what I wore to go out that night.
P.S: Please ignore the background. I have a studio apartment so the bathroom was the best place for me to put the mirror.
Domino Jeans, H&M Jacket, CaGi vintage envelope Clutch
Full body pic
H&M Shirt, Forever 21 bangles & necklace and my nameplate bracelet
My favorite Payless shoes
What I wore at work was slightly different. Just black pants and black flats. This is what I wore to go out that night.
P.S: Please ignore the background. I have a studio apartment so the bathroom was the best place for me to put the mirror.
Domino Jeans, H&M Jacket, CaGi vintage envelope Clutch
Full body pic
H&M Shirt, Forever 21 bangles & necklace and my nameplate bracelet
My favorite Payless shoes
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