Baggage

I'm over YOU. Didn't like YOU that much. And I'm starting to like YOU. But I can't get over HIM.

Now, It's not like I lose sleep over it. But it is the reason why I can't trust. The reason I feel jaded. The reason I don't want to date anyone exclusively. I'm afraid of trusting like I did before and getting hurt again. And again. It's really not easy to admit that I have baggage. I mean, I know most of us do.. but this is like too-heavy-for-a-carryon baggage. And I know everything looks perfect on the outside, but all that weight has broken me inside.

So how do I believe what YOU or even YOU tell me is real? HE said a lot of the same things. HE looked at me in that same way too. Why should I think YOU are any different? Yea I know I sound bitter, and since I'm being honest I guess I somewhat am. So now YOU may wonder how anything I say is credible. But really, it just wouldn't make sense to embellish my feelings or hide what they are. Especially when I hope YOU won't do that either. That's what this whole post was about anyway, right?