Just A Thought

Whenever I am surprised to find out someone my age has a kid or is pregant I start to question if I should really be surprised. I mean I'm not a teenager anymore. Back in my parents day everyone was married with kids by 23-24. So why is it a shock? Maybe it's because I know it's not easy to have children so young. Especially as a woman with dreams. I have never wanted to get married and have children. And of course whenever I would say that people would tell me it's because I was young and as I got older I would want all of that. Well they were right. But I don't want it yet. I feel like I am too young to have a family. That's not saying anything about the people who do. I just want to still do a lot of things that I could not do if I had a child. And I'm not totally sold on the idea of getting married. I like weddings, I would love to attend some. I think it's beautiful the love two people can have for each other. But I have also seen how that love and bliss turns into hate and remorse. Even among those that aren't married and just have kids. Maybe even more so. I guess what surprises me is that these people are brave enough to have a child. It changes your life. Hopefully for the better, but it is a big deal either way. All I know is I am terrified, and so not ready.

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