Friends

I feel so alone sometimes. Like when I'm having a bad day I don't know who to vent to. Or when I'm excited about something I don't know who to share the news with. Even when I am just bored and want to have a random conversation I don't really know who to turn to.

It feels weird to have friends but not feel like I have a solid foundation. I mean, my friends will have my back if I am really going through something but first I'd have to catch them up on everything that has been going on lately. And I know I've spoken about this before but I still wish I had that tight-knit group that hangs out often and talks everyday. Or at least one person like that. I'm comfortable being alone but I don't like to feel lonely.

A solution I've heard to this is that I should make new friends. But I don't really want to make new friends. I don't want to force myself to go out places with the intention of meeting new people. I'm not against meeting someone new, I just don't want to force it or try too hard. I believe in things falling into place. In clicking with people. So, I guess whatever happens happens. I'll just make more use of this blog when I need to air things out.