Only Time Can Tell

I hardly believe I'm back in the stage of trying to forget about him..trying to forget my feelings for him. Just as quickly as things started up again, they kind of fell apart. And I'm sad to even mention anything, especially on this blog. But maybe if I get this out I won't have to speak about it again. Maybe this will even be the last time I try to convince myself that things are better this way. That it wouldn't work out anyway. Well, good luck with that. Things were back to how they once were until he "spoke too soon" and as much as I hoped it wouldn't change a thing, sometimes words can't be taken back. We both agreed it wouldn't change things and that it didn't have to but I noticed a change in him almost immediately. And I didn't think to remind myself to not get used to him again. But I have to admit that I'm gonna miss his kiss..his embrace..the text messages saying "I miss you"..and especially hearing him say "te quiero". Yup, that's the killer right there. And I know the saying that you can't miss what you never had should apply here but this was different. I used to also think that the third time was the charm but in this case the third time was a strikeout. At least I'm not afraid to move on, if mostly because I know I could use the distraction. But also, because I'm hoping someone else could help me forget.